Happy birthday…

I sent this to you on your birthday but decided today that I should keep it.

Happy Birthday Glenn since you are turning 18 here are 18 things I admire about you.
1. You always try to make me feel better when I’m sad.
2.When I see you smile I get butterflies even when it’s not because of me //like at the movies you started laughing (I dont remember why) and I had the worst tingley feeling in my stomach.//
3.You’ve changed how I view the world //before I met you I never placed any sort of credence in coincidences but then I realized coincidences are all life is//
4. You like my puns (to some degree)
5.You are sometimes just as curious about me as I am about you.
6. Even when you are too busy to talk, just reading over our old conversations make me happy. // early this morning I woke up from a nightmare and so I read our conversations from the past week and was able to go back to sleep//

7. You make me understand the meanings of songs better. //before I started talking to you I hadn’t had a lot of experience telling people how I feel about them or all the feelings that come with it since then you’ve made me feel things I’ve never felt.//
8. You understand me…or at least try to (I know how difficult that can be)
9. You make my daydreams seem possible just for a second. (even though I know just how impossible they are) //Side note: How would you feel about black overalls?//
10. You are the only person that can break my heart and make me so happy at the same time.
11.(eleven is my favorite doctor so it’s going to be my favorite thing about you) Your eyes are so beautiful. Not because of their deep color but how I feel when looking them. //As if my soal could curl up in their warmth and stay there forever.//
12. We have more in common than I suspected we would.

13.You are almost as geeky as I am. Well I don’t know. I think that we are just as geeky as one another but I think I’m a bit of a different breed of geek.
14. Falling asleep is so easy when I’m thinking about you and staying awake is so much easier when I’m talking to you.
15. Sometimes I don’t know what the perfect response is to a message is until you respond with something that makes me really happy or makes me laugh.
16. I trust you. //I know you might not
think that is a big deal but it is there isn’t anybody that I trust more than you…I mean I’ve placed my heart at your feet and you’ve had every oppertunity it completely crush it and yet you haven’t (Not completely anyway)
17. You make me feel good about my most embarrassing thoughts.
18. Words can’t begin to describe how wonderful I find you.//I truly think that you are the closest thing to perfection that has touched the earth.//


I wonder (yes..another poem)


Do you know how much I care

Even though I just sit and stare?

As you wipe her lipstick off your face

Do you wish that mine would take its place?

Do you see me when you close your eyes

Even though she’s by your side?

As you see my name on your phone

Do you wish I would leave you alone?

Do you want me to hold you tight

Even though you think it’s not right?

As you start to fall asleep

Do you think about what we could be?

I wonder…

Here’s a poem for you


I want your face to get red as you look at me
I want you to look at me and feel as happy as you make me
I want you to feel your heart race when I smile
I want you to feel terrified and at the same time excited each time I enter the room
I want you to feel terrified that you’ll mess things up
Just for a day

I want you to be the one to watch my back as I walk away
I want you to be the one who dreams about me
I want you to be the one to be surprised when I text you
I want you to be the one who has a smile they can’t get rid of because you’re thinking of me
Just for a day

I want to feel something less
I want to look at you and just see a person I occasionally talk to
I want to look at you without butterflies or blushing or my heart racing
I just want things to be switched
I want to be the one you tell things to
Just for a day

It would make you understand
It would make you realize how important you are
It would free me from my mind
It would also trap you inside of yours
Just for a day

I know you won’t feel as I do
I know I will never make you that happy
I know that this would never happen
Even if it was…
Just for a day